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well…our elders always cakap, Ramadan nihla time Allah nak menguji umatnye… I know…but never experienced one, until now….

dis week totally f**k me off!!! ( sabar ida, bulan poser nih ).. ehem2.. as i wuz saying….last 2 days, the day dat i had to take my first finals paper… Object-oriented programming, my laptop wuz stolen dat morning… the thing is i slept at 4 a.m in that morning after goin thru my last revision, n my housemate n their bf’s tgh sahur kat parlour nih…so, i juz left la my laptop kat meja study i ( FYI my meja study dekat parlour gak )..the next morning i woke up, N i didnt see my laptop nymore…time tuh dalam hati mmg dah gabra gler…takut seyh… i checked at my friend’s desk, ape pon tak ilang…only my laptop…

after siasat the whole house, barulah tau citer yg when one of my housemate abt to go to work ( she’s a stewardess ) she n her bf ( bf dier anta dier g keje ) found dat the door is not locked, the the grill door is soooo wide open… it’s like 7.45 a.m….they all finished "sahuring" at 5 a.m…so that means dat the thief came into my house between 5 - 7.45 a.m..it doesnt make sense at all… whoever this thief is, he/she really knew the condition of the house…well, ape nak buat.. things already happen…dah ler the day my 1st paper is… i already file a police report as well as a security report at cyberia office ( cuz the police said they cant do investigation in here cuz it’s a private area ) whateverrr …

well people…dat juz not it… my bad day continues…

yesterday, i had probability n statistics exam at 3 p.m…. i came late to the xm hall cuz i’m a bit lost to find the venue ( hey, it’s not my faculty ok..sbb tuh tak biase ) on my mind dat time wuz juz " ida ur 5 minutes late, ur wastin precious time "…there’s nutin else on my mind besides those words repeated on my head…after i found the venue, i’m stupidly put my bags outside… i thot it wuz ok since i saw a couple of bags out there…

after one hour starting the exam, my lecturer came to me n said " ida, we found ur purse at the men’s toilet "…i’m blur <long pause>.." wut wuz dat again mam? " "we found ur purse at the men’s toilet…n i already gave the purse to the security guard… u can claim it at the security office""ouh…<long pause again> mm..thank u mam "… n in my heart dat time wuz "shoot..ida ur hp..deymm"….i know by dat time the guy already took my hp n my money…it’s like 10 minutes my mind wuz wandering n i didnt concentrate on the xm…i juz stare blankly ahead…deymm…

after finished the xm…i quickly rushed out n saw my things already scatterred… i picked e’tin up n started to walk helplessy heading to the security office… after took my purse i went to the toilet n cried…i’m not cryin bcuz i lost my laptop n i’m not cryin cuz i lost my money or even my hp…i cried cuz i’d done very badly in the xm as i lost my concentration…

when i went out from the toilet i saw a couple of my friends, they ask me how wuz the paper..i said very bad…then i ask one of them to msg my bf, saying dat i’m coming to his house…i told them i didnt bring my hp…

i went to his house..the main door is not locked… so, i juz went in…i went to his room n knocked on his door…he opens door n when he saw me, he started scolding me… " y didnt u pick up ur phone, i call u like 20 times already n bla bla "…. i stare at him n said i lost my hp…n started cryin..he wuz suprised… he said " how can this happen, u juz msg me juz now "..i said " no, i’m not".. "yes u do..u said ‘ baby…top-up 30 ringgit to my phone, tq’ n the msg wuz so strange cuz u never ask me for money..dat’s y i keep calling u "… i saw the time of the msg n it wuz 3.15 pm…n dat time i wuz in the xm hall sitting for the xm… dat means the thief msg my bf to ask him to reload my phone n he even took my things as soon as i dump my bag there…hurmm… Astagfirullah-halazim…

since the thief clever enuff to msg my bf to get money..i thought he would do the same to my mum or my dad n even my pet brother…so, i’m starting to call them n said i lost my phone….bla bla bla..n dunt do nytin dat is requested from my phone cuz it’s not me….selesai satu perkara…hurmm…

i have xm today..Operating System..but i didnt attend it cuz my mind is totally blurred….i went to the MMU’s doctor last nite n said i’m not emotionally fit enuff to sit for the xm..n i told him e’tin…he said ok, he will gv me MC for today… he feels sorry for me…on the MC letter he wrote dat i had a clinically depression n since i had nerveous breakdown once before, he afraid i mite get it again…

so….this week have been quite challenging to me… dugaan betol… never faced dis kind of challenges b4….i didnt tell a lot of ppl about my lost, i dunt think it’s necessary…so guys, if u read this..u know aite..sorry for didnt tell u…juz not in the mood for talking…

aite..till here…i’m gonna go back to my hometown on 15th oct after finished all my xm…n gonna b back here, maybe around 1st or 2nd nov… by the way, i’m moving to hostel next trimester…my appeal is approved….